adehh.....

huu...weekdays ni mmg bg ak rs cm nak pengsan......wwwaaaaa!!!!!nape??sebab semua assignment da mula menonjolkan dirinya tanpa segan silu lagi..huhu....dgn lab report lg....da bpe ari ak tidoq kul 3pg cmtu....bgn esknya p kelas....msuk bilik sb nk tidoq jaa....huhu...penatnya...br la ak rs cemana tensennya nk bt report aero lab..br lab 1 tuh....hihi...smlm pon smpai blik da kul 3pg dr kafe edu...huhu....pg td bt exprment pun suma cam pening2 lalat, and nak termuntah..huhu....adeh...gila dasat penangan lab nih rupanya....huhu....tp td kamo dpt bt exprmt dgn pnuh brgaya...sb?sbnya da bleh adapt ngn equation yg pjg n plik tuh..huhu...biasala last week br first time bt exprmt...mmgla sgt2 blur..hope report ni takdela tnsn sgt nk bt..isk....

then, ari ahad nih ada family day psscmuiam..ak under sports n recreation...so kna la organize bnda nih....hmm...ak jd cmttee special task...mlm ni kn p cr brg2 untuk disumbatkan dlm hamper..huhu....nsib kak atun da bg guideline nk bli apa n byk mn..thanks kak atun....huhu...teringat plak kat seorang kakak nih...nmya kak farihah...huhu....da besaq mn la beliau..haha...serious rindu gilaa....haha...dulu kan kalo ada apa2 psl silat, msti p ngn dia bersama2 menyumbatkan diri dlm KCJ tuh..huhu...lani da sorg2 da...isk3....takpe kak...yg patah tumbuh yg hilang brgantiiiii...hahha..

lg satu yg bg ak cm stress...dwet ptptn nih...td maria ckp da msuk da..pas dia tgk kul 3pm...zati kata xmsuk lg..huhu...msukla wahai dwet pt....huhu...ak nak bli bku nk bt asgmnt nih...huhu......da bpa hr da keja dok cucuk kad mtrk dlm at, tuh...xjgk bertambah digit2 dlm akaun ak..huhu...smpaikan ak rs cm nak bg buah kilas hadapaaaaannn jaaa...huhu....oit....da ka patut nk silat ngn mesin..sewel...haha..eee..geram2...huhu..

hari sabtu yg tak akan aku lupakan

dgn ini, semalam, sabtu 25 julai 2009, ak ngn kak fiza p miat pg tuh...da lma ni plan...dr time p kpt lg..haha..jd gaak akhirnya..haha..ak xsure la nk teruja ke x ms b4 p tuh..ak cm blur2 lg..pg lg kot...haha...dlm kul 8lbeh kuaq p tgu bas ngn kak fiza..emmm...actually, km p miat sb ada aerocarnival...pegh..first time ak dgq kak fiza sbut psl bnda nih, ak cm da excited gila nk p...tp pg smlm ak bleh rs cam takde ap2 lg..haha...ntahla np..mbe dok pk dwet PT xmsuk lg kot..yo laa....takleh nk shopping2 kat miat nti..ak dlm jiwa tuh, nk jgk mencr2 bnda pasl aircraft...sb skang ni ak ptg tgk ap2 airraft..ak msti ckp bnda alah tuh kiut gla2..haha...hmm...lpas naik bas+lrt+komuter+keta kwn kak fiza, km pon smpaila kat miat....ms nk msuk tuh ak da npk aircraft..waaahhhh...comelnyaaaa....cantiknyaaaa...and br la hati ak nih berbunga2 n bernyanyi2 riang..ahakss...haha..and..aktiviti yg ak xkn lupa smpai ak mati ialah..km 3org naik helikopter..waaaa..sgt2 la best!!!tak pnah la ak naik bnda alah tuh lg spjg ak hdup....flight pon tak pnah..huhu...feri penang yg sopan santun tuh slalu la ak naik..hoho...hmm..pastu tgk demo silat cekak...bestnyaaa....haha..slalu tgk yg uia pnya demo...nih tgk yg lain plak...hihi...tp, mmg best sgt2 laa...kak fiza je taw pasepa ak rs best time tgk demo tuh..hoho...hmmmm....pastuh...p solat zuhur kat surau miat...then km pon balik la....smpat la jgk snap gmbq ngn craft yg ada kat situ...hoho...best333!!!!!!tenkiu la kat kwn kak fiza tu sb sudi jd cameraman..haha....hmm..pastuh, km pon dihantaq la kmbali ke stesen komuter yg berkenaan..haha...bestnya kat miat...now, ak da taw btapa ptgnya aerospace kat malaysia nih..even da taw, tp better la ak p aerocarnival ni..sb ak jd lbeh yakin utk ckp kat org lain yg aero is a part of engineering that gve u a very good and bright future life....kta kn move forward...bkn backward...sb tu la skang ni biotek da well known.dulu ramai org ckp biotek cm takda ms dpn kat mlaysia...tp tgk la lani..sgt2 berkembang...huhu..so, aerospace pon ada peluang gak nk berkembang..bnda2 yg baru camnih ken ateroka btl2...smpai bila kita nk hrpkan bli craft dr negara len..kita kn bt sndiri..mana taw satu hr nanti, malaysia sndiri ada jet, flight, heli yg mmg 100% made in malaysia...hehe....tak guna da airbus A380 time tuh..haha...insyaallah....by the way....ehem2...kunjungan ke miat mmg best la....hehe..


hmmm..mlm smalam...ak join webteam p tgk wayang..haha...harry potter and the half blood prince...huhu...da la siang tu da pnat merayau2..mlm p tgk wyg la..haha..tp mmg best la...even ak ngntuk sgt dlm panggung tuh..huhu...ak xpnah tgk cite harry potter lg..means tgk btl2 1 episod pon lg..haha...maybe sb abg2 ak kat umah tak pnah tgk kot...sb tu la ak xtgk..lainla lotr...hoho...hmm...ms tgk tu, ak pnyala dok tgu bla depa ni nak lawan..keja pgg stik pastuh jampi2..huhu...rupa2nya harry potter mmg camtuh..takde ank2 panh yg bertrbgn, bom ke...tembak2 ke..haha...jahil gla ak ngn harry potter ni..hoho...tp bg ak la..prt yg pling best, time ron ngn team dia main bola tuh..best la...sb depa trbg2 gn penyapu tuh...haha...sewl btul la ak nih..haha....

well...thank u very much kat kak fiza sb ajak ak p miat ngn tgk wyg...hoho..jasamu akn ku kenang selamanya..hehe...yg p miat tu mmg BEST la..haha...len kali nk p miat ajak lg ek..esppecially kalo ada demo silat cekak..hoho..ahakss...

entry untuk dia.....

ak xtaw apa yg ak rs skarang ni btl atw x....or perlu ka ak rs cmtuh....dgn keadaan ak yg camni..kwn2 ak bleh ckp ak ni cm da hepi...yes..mmg ak hepi..tp kan...dlm hati ak, yg kat hjg2 tu, still rs sdih lg...cemana pon ak ckp ak da lpakn apa yg da jd, ak still igt..haha..mestila..ak bknnya da hlg ingatan...hehe..feeling plak da..well...ak taktaw...ptt ke tidak ak jatuh centa lg...jtuh centa ka???ntah..ak pon xtaw..nak kata ad pengganti...tak kot....sb ak still single but only available for someone...haha...ayat tuh rsnya da ckup utk bgtaw apa yg ak rs lani..haha...bknnya ak jtuh centa pon..ak rs tenag, hepi, selamat ..even ak xslalu dgn dia...or dia mgkin tak pnah rs cmni kat ak..maybe dia just anggap ak ni cm junior dia...xda ap2 yg pnting or yg bg dia tertarik pon..hoho..ak ja yg perasan..haha..well...ngn dia ak rs btl2 best!!!ntahla ap yg ak rs ni...haha..maybe ia xjth centa kat ak lg...so, ak xnk jth centa kat dia....haha..bleh x camtuh???whatever it is..ak hrp ak xkan bt ap2 yg obvious yg bg npk ak nk get along ngn dia...haha..sket2 2 blehla..tkt dia perasan plak ak approach..hoho..takmo2...nk dia yg bt dulu..huhu..kn tgu smpai bila ntah..ak pon xtaw..haha..well...tgu n tgu n tgu la...ak xnk kelam kabut da..rilex...cool...pigi da moon!!!trlepas pdn muka...haha...hu..takmo2...hoho....just always wishing that we will be together forever..pegh....haha

revenge of the moon.............

emmm...da start sem baru....cam takut+excited sebab da start majoring...aerospace....npe ak amik major nih????sbab ak ska ngn bnda2 yg bergerak and ak npk bnda tu bergerak and ak bleh rs benda tu wujud...haha...apa la ayat belit2..huhu...emmm...mmg smgt la sb br first week..assignment pun belum memunculkan dirinya..bleh kta bahagia la jgak nih..haha..tgkla mgu dpan...aku bhgia or da tunggang langgang..huhu....anywy...ak da ada hidup baru and ak rs ak da sedia nk start new life..means tak igt sgt ap yg jd dlm hidup ak sem lpas..suma tu da jd sejarah..my past..tp org ckp sejarah mungkin berulang..isk..takmola..klao cmtu...nti still akn ada possibility ak akan ngs2 lg..tamo2..huhu..ak nak hidup yg hepi, tenang, ceria, nyaman...taknak da benci2, mrh2....umoq pun da mkin meningkat...kn la pkiaq matured sket..taknak da sshkan org....tp. ak takkn tglkan st bnda..ak takkan maafkan org tu...tak kisahla ap org nak komen or dia takleh terima...ms dia bt ada dia pkiaq ak bleh terima tak...ak rs tak...hmm..ok...enough about him..now, ak da cm nak jd transformer..autobots la..bkn decepticons....huhu...revenge of the moon...even nm cm untuk decepticons tuh...hmm..ak nak revenge....ak nak dapatkn pointer yg best untuk sem ni and i m going to search for a better and merrier life!!!!!

goodbye....

sesungguhnya...ak terpaksa say gudbye kat bnda2 nih.......

• ikan goreng
  
• selimut biru
• upik abu dan laura
• wonderpets
• bebear
• spongebob squarepants

and for these people...i will try to contact u everyday....huhu

• mak
• abah
• kak uji
• abg sham
• abg chik
  
• abg leh

and..for my own "wonderpets"!!!!!

• betty the mak kucing
  
• belang si kucing jantan yg pemalu
  
• putih si kucing yg manja
• comot si kucing yg sopan santun
• tam si kucing yg mkn cm vakum
• panjang si anak kucing yg kurus, hitam dan menawan
• pendek si anak kucing yg selalu kena buli
• cik ang si angsa yang poyo, sengal dan mengada2
• mr x si burung tekukur yg da tak berbunyi

huhu..ak sure akn rindu kat suma yg sememangnya ada kat umah ak ja....i will miss all ofthem forever..misssssss all of uuuuu...huhu...

sebab...esok ak da kn blik uia da..huhu....

life and love...erm..yaka...

hmmm..smlm da tgk result xm sotsem..alhamdulillah..ak pass both sbject....and ak pass oop..so, tak pyh repeat aa...hihi..seriously..tu la sbjek yg plg ak tak phm ap bnda yg ak blajaq..ak tak npk ap2 bnda yg bergerak, or brbunyi time blajaq sbjek tu..so, takde calculaton..just bt coding yg ak rs pelik teramat sgt..sem dpn ni just ambik praktikal utk oop...mcm ssh..tp, takpa la..bt ja la...ssh cemana pun, ak still kn bt and pass bnda nih..huhu...hope sgt2 ak pass engin lab 2 sem dpan..risau2..sbjek ece yg plg last ak kna ambik..hoho...mtk2 sgtla ak pass..takdela ak hrp pass with flying colours..sb ak tw otak ak untuk sbjek ni cemana..tp, ak hrp ok la sepanjang ak amik engin lab 2 nti..n ak hrp ak tak de la kn shot current time bt exprmt electronics cm engin lab 1 dlu...hihi...emm..about my life....my new life, perhaps..ak makin tenang... hope so....even ad skali tu yg pas ak taw dia ad org len(cam entry ak sblum ni) mood ak cm hampeh..yes..ak kecewa..sb cm tak logik ja dia bt camtu..even mmg ad possibilty utk jd..tp tahla...ssh ak nak terima..now, ak da taw bnda yg btl..ak calm sket..even ak mmg tak nk dia dlm hdup ak..even a new him..ak tak sedia to face the same situation..that might or might not happen..takut...biaqla ak stay cmni dulu...kalo ada org yg bleh bt ak jth cinta blik and dpt bt ak pcy, insyaallah..hati aku akn terbuka blik..tp stakat ni, it is really damn hard nk lupakn ap2 ja pasal dia...ssh...so, i need someone yg bleh calm ak..bleh pisahkan ak dgn kngn2 dgn dia tu...ntahla ad ka tk org cmtu..kalo tak da..ak kn bt semuanya sndiri..takbleh tgu cinta org len..and ak mmg tak reti cr cinta=cr mslh....huhu....

the end!

well, lani ak yakin and sgt2 pasti..a new him takkan tiba dlm hidup ak lg pasni...dia da bhgia ngn org lain..means dia da lupa kat ak or even jnji2 dia..ak pun rs cam tak hadap sgt akt dia pas ak taw bnda ni...just live happily wit ur new girl....tp..ak takkn maafkan dia...even ap yg jd..sesunggguhnya, bg ak, dia la org yg plg buang ms ak..plg tak hargai ak..bt ak cm experiment...ak rs down sgt2..tp ak kn bangun..hidup msti dtruskn..tak guna ak igt dia lg..ak taknak jd perampas..ak tak semurah tu...and ak takkan terima dia lg dlm hidup ak and anybody yg sipi2 perangai cam dia...tak guna kalo ak bt baik kat dia means try cntact dia or watever....ak kn yakinkan hati ak..dia bkn utk ak..and now..ak mmg taknak dia untuk ak..sb ak akn jd "org yg tercipta untuk dilukai" kalo ngan dia...ak ckp just live hppily bkn brmkna ak doakan depa bhgia..tp bhgia ats kesedihan org lain...dan org yg menganiaya org lain takkan bhgia selamanya...WHAT U GIVE U GET BACK!!!dat is my absolute true wish for both of u....

terribly wrong..i guess..

hr2, ak sntiasa rs cm nk ngs sgt2..awat ak tak kuat ni...bnda bkn br smlm or mgu lpas jd..tp da lbih sbulan...awat ak still sedih..cam takleh lg nak adapt ngan jiwa yang bru, perasaan yg br..hidup tnpa dia..slama nih, ak da try bt yg terbaik, yg ak rs bleh bg ak calm...mcm2 da ak bt..tp sdih tu still ada dlm ati ak..ikt mana ja ak p...awat jd camni..ak rs cm da tak thn ngn hidup ak...ak cm da takda smgt..bdhnya ak rs kdg2.sb dia ja, ak jd cmni..yes..sb ak syg dia sgt and btl la ap org ckp..kalo syg, jgn syg spenuhnya, nanti kita akn merana...bila ak tgk org len bhgia..ak rs sdih sgt...awat ak tak camtu aa..mbe time utk ak bhgia tak smpai lg..or shall i say, da terlepas..ak tak sempat nk rs bhgia btl2,dia da hlg dr ak...ak sedih sgt2...i know, i am nobody....stressnya.........A

what should i do....

my life is suck without u..........ak taw yg ak xpatut rs cmni...........bt ap ak nak igt past time yg btkan ak ngis truk2, xsnyum bpa hr....ngs tak kira tmpat, tak kira masa........ak taknak igt da...ak mmg wish taknak igt bnda2 yg sdih...tp, stiap masa, all of the memories cm slalu ada ja ngan ak..tak kira mana aku p, or apa yg ak buat...ap yg pnah ak lalui ngan dia, da jd cm a part of my life that i cant afford to leave....kdg2 ak rs cm stress sgt..nak menjerit2...tp, da mcm org gila meroyan plak....taknak la jd org gila kan....tp..ak stress..cam da berat sgt otak aku ni....ak seboleh2nya tknak jmpa dia, even taknak npk dia...or even sbt nama dia, or npk nama dia..sbnya, bla one of them jd, ak trus rs sdih sgt2, sdih sgt2...sdih yg tak dpat ak nak ckp cemana...ak mmg tak sedia and ak tak pnah sedia utk jd cmni..means..a break up with him...ak sedaya upaya pkiaq yg positif even sometimes ak da dpt rs feeling yg bnda ni akan jd..ak tolak , ak buang jauh2 perasaan tu and ak pgg ap yang dia ckp...and one day..everything is finished and no turning back anymore..kalo da pun, bkn lani and maybe ada.....maybe la...tell me, bpa percent maybe bleh jd kalo ak pnah yakin 100% and apa y ak yakin sgt2 tu da musnah....should i believe wit a word maybe???seriously..ak gla2 frust..awat jd camni.....should i believe in him.....ak nak...tp ak takleh...sepatutnya, ak just let him go...even ak syg dia sgt2 and ak taknak bnda cmni jd ..tp, ak tak terdaya nak lwn takdir..maybe da takda jodoh..or ap2 ja lg sbab yg len....yg hny dia taw apa sbab tu and yg ak tak pnah2 nak fhm sbab yg dia bg..perlu ka ak try ubah hati aku kat org lain ...perlu ka...ak taw ak takleh...sbabnya, setiap masa, ak rs dia ada ngan ak....cemana aku nak sygkn org len....even start ngan suka...seriously..it damn hard for me!!!tu bkn cra ak nak lupakan dia...ak da taktaw nak bt cemana lg.. i hope that i will meet someone else that love me, care for me......that seriously will not make me sad again...and i am really hope that the "someone" is a "new him"..that have said he will change to be a better man....and should i wait and trust him???