y.....

i dunno why....
last nite....
when im reading a novel....
not a love novel...
a patriotic novel....
suddenly....
i cried....
not because the patriotic feeling....
but the person in the novel died about 2 days before eid mubarak...
and he is planned to get married in the 3rd day of the eid...
tragically...
he died beacuse of an attack by a comunist.....
his mother cant accept the fact...
and then...
i cried...
but as times goes by...
im still crying...
wat da.....
isk...
and then...
i realise....
im not crying because of the story.....
it is because i suddenly remembering something...
that always make my heart cry, sad and feels like....
its gonna explode at that time....
but why i need to cry...
it doesnt want to stop..
i hate it!!!!
seriously......
it was a long time since i last cried....
especially because of that 'something'....
i felt like im aloser...
crying because of that 'something'
'something' that i damnly want to forget....
just get out of my life....
y....