entry untuk dia.....

ak xtaw apa yg ak rs skarang ni btl atw x....or perlu ka ak rs cmtuh....dgn keadaan ak yg camni..kwn2 ak bleh ckp ak ni cm da hepi...yes..mmg ak hepi..tp kan...dlm hati ak, yg kat hjg2 tu, still rs sdih lg...cemana pon ak ckp ak da lpakn apa yg da jd, ak still igt..haha..mestila..ak bknnya da hlg ingatan...hehe..feeling plak da..well...ak taktaw...ptt ke tidak ak jatuh centa lg...jtuh centa ka???ntah..ak pon xtaw..nak kata ad pengganti...tak kot....sb ak still single but only available for someone...haha...ayat tuh rsnya da ckup utk bgtaw apa yg ak rs lani..haha...bknnya ak jtuh centa pon..ak rs tenag, hepi, selamat ..even ak xslalu dgn dia...or dia mgkin tak pnah rs cmni kat ak..maybe dia just anggap ak ni cm junior dia...xda ap2 yg pnting or yg bg dia tertarik pon..hoho..ak ja yg perasan..haha..well...ngn dia ak rs btl2 best!!!ntahla ap yg ak rs ni...haha..maybe ia xjth centa kat ak lg...so, ak xnk jth centa kat dia....haha..bleh x camtuh???whatever it is..ak hrp ak xkan bt ap2 yg obvious yg bg npk ak nk get along ngn dia...haha..sket2 2 blehla..tkt dia perasan plak ak approach..hoho..takmo2...nk dia yg bt dulu..huhu..kn tgu smpai bila ntah..ak pon xtaw..haha..well...tgu n tgu n tgu la...ak xnk kelam kabut da..rilex...cool...pigi da moon!!!trlepas pdn muka...haha...hu..takmo2...hoho....just always wishing that we will be together forever..pegh....haha

revenge of the moon.............

emmm...da start sem baru....cam takut+excited sebab da start majoring...aerospace....npe ak amik major nih????sbab ak ska ngn bnda2 yg bergerak and ak npk bnda tu bergerak and ak bleh rs benda tu wujud...haha...apa la ayat belit2..huhu...emmm...mmg smgt la sb br first week..assignment pun belum memunculkan dirinya..bleh kta bahagia la jgak nih..haha..tgkla mgu dpan...aku bhgia or da tunggang langgang..huhu....anywy...ak da ada hidup baru and ak rs ak da sedia nk start new life..means tak igt sgt ap yg jd dlm hidup ak sem lpas..suma tu da jd sejarah..my past..tp org ckp sejarah mungkin berulang..isk..takmola..klao cmtu...nti still akn ada possibility ak akan ngs2 lg..tamo2..huhu..ak nak hidup yg hepi, tenang, ceria, nyaman...taknak da benci2, mrh2....umoq pun da mkin meningkat...kn la pkiaq matured sket..taknak da sshkan org....tp. ak takkn tglkan st bnda..ak takkan maafkan org tu...tak kisahla ap org nak komen or dia takleh terima...ms dia bt ada dia pkiaq ak bleh terima tak...ak rs tak...hmm..ok...enough about him..now, ak da cm nak jd transformer..autobots la..bkn decepticons....huhu...revenge of the moon...even nm cm untuk decepticons tuh...hmm..ak nak revenge....ak nak dapatkn pointer yg best untuk sem ni and i m going to search for a better and merrier life!!!!!

goodbye....

sesungguhnya...ak terpaksa say gudbye kat bnda2 nih.......

• ikan goreng
  
• selimut biru
• upik abu dan laura
• wonderpets
• bebear
• spongebob squarepants

and for these people...i will try to contact u everyday....huhu

• mak
• abah
• kak uji
• abg sham
• abg chik
  
• abg leh

and..for my own "wonderpets"!!!!!

• betty the mak kucing
  
• belang si kucing jantan yg pemalu
  
• putih si kucing yg manja
• comot si kucing yg sopan santun
• tam si kucing yg mkn cm vakum
• panjang si anak kucing yg kurus, hitam dan menawan
• pendek si anak kucing yg selalu kena buli
• cik ang si angsa yang poyo, sengal dan mengada2
• mr x si burung tekukur yg da tak berbunyi

huhu..ak sure akn rindu kat suma yg sememangnya ada kat umah ak ja....i will miss all ofthem forever..misssssss all of uuuuu...huhu...

sebab...esok ak da kn blik uia da..huhu....

life and love...erm..yaka...

hmmm..smlm da tgk result xm sotsem..alhamdulillah..ak pass both sbject....and ak pass oop..so, tak pyh repeat aa...hihi..seriously..tu la sbjek yg plg ak tak phm ap bnda yg ak blajaq..ak tak npk ap2 bnda yg bergerak, or brbunyi time blajaq sbjek tu..so, takde calculaton..just bt coding yg ak rs pelik teramat sgt..sem dpn ni just ambik praktikal utk oop...mcm ssh..tp, takpa la..bt ja la...ssh cemana pun, ak still kn bt and pass bnda nih..huhu...hope sgt2 ak pass engin lab 2 sem dpan..risau2..sbjek ece yg plg last ak kna ambik..hoho...mtk2 sgtla ak pass..takdela ak hrp pass with flying colours..sb ak tw otak ak untuk sbjek ni cemana..tp, ak hrp ok la sepanjang ak amik engin lab 2 nti..n ak hrp ak tak de la kn shot current time bt exprmt electronics cm engin lab 1 dlu...hihi...emm..about my life....my new life, perhaps..ak makin tenang... hope so....even ad skali tu yg pas ak taw dia ad org len(cam entry ak sblum ni) mood ak cm hampeh..yes..ak kecewa..sb cm tak logik ja dia bt camtu..even mmg ad possibilty utk jd..tp tahla...ssh ak nak terima..now, ak da taw bnda yg btl..ak calm sket..even ak mmg tak nk dia dlm hdup ak..even a new him..ak tak sedia to face the same situation..that might or might not happen..takut...biaqla ak stay cmni dulu...kalo ada org yg bleh bt ak jth cinta blik and dpt bt ak pcy, insyaallah..hati aku akn terbuka blik..tp stakat ni, it is really damn hard nk lupakn ap2 ja pasal dia...ssh...so, i need someone yg bleh calm ak..bleh pisahkan ak dgn kngn2 dgn dia tu...ntahla ad ka tk org cmtu..kalo tak da..ak kn bt semuanya sndiri..takbleh tgu cinta org len..and ak mmg tak reti cr cinta=cr mslh....huhu....

the end!

well, lani ak yakin and sgt2 pasti..a new him takkan tiba dlm hidup ak lg pasni...dia da bhgia ngn org lain..means dia da lupa kat ak or even jnji2 dia..ak pun rs cam tak hadap sgt akt dia pas ak taw bnda ni...just live happily wit ur new girl....tp..ak takkn maafkan dia...even ap yg jd..sesunggguhnya, bg ak, dia la org yg plg buang ms ak..plg tak hargai ak..bt ak cm experiment...ak rs down sgt2..tp ak kn bangun..hidup msti dtruskn..tak guna ak igt dia lg..ak taknak jd perampas..ak tak semurah tu...and ak takkan terima dia lg dlm hidup ak and anybody yg sipi2 perangai cam dia...tak guna kalo ak bt baik kat dia means try cntact dia or watever....ak kn yakinkan hati ak..dia bkn utk ak..and now..ak mmg taknak dia untuk ak..sb ak akn jd "org yg tercipta untuk dilukai" kalo ngan dia...ak ckp just live hppily bkn brmkna ak doakan depa bhgia..tp bhgia ats kesedihan org lain...dan org yg menganiaya org lain takkan bhgia selamanya...WHAT U GIVE U GET BACK!!!dat is my absolute true wish for both of u....

terribly wrong..i guess..

hr2, ak sntiasa rs cm nk ngs sgt2..awat ak tak kuat ni...bnda bkn br smlm or mgu lpas jd..tp da lbih sbulan...awat ak still sedih..cam takleh lg nak adapt ngan jiwa yang bru, perasaan yg br..hidup tnpa dia..slama nih, ak da try bt yg terbaik, yg ak rs bleh bg ak calm...mcm2 da ak bt..tp sdih tu still ada dlm ati ak..ikt mana ja ak p...awat jd camni..ak rs cm da tak thn ngn hidup ak...ak cm da takda smgt..bdhnya ak rs kdg2.sb dia ja, ak jd cmni..yes..sb ak syg dia sgt and btl la ap org ckp..kalo syg, jgn syg spenuhnya, nanti kita akn merana...bila ak tgk org len bhgia..ak rs sdih sgt...awat ak tak camtu aa..mbe time utk ak bhgia tak smpai lg..or shall i say, da terlepas..ak tak sempat nk rs bhgia btl2,dia da hlg dr ak...ak sedih sgt2...i know, i am nobody....stressnya.........A

what should i do....

my life is suck without u..........ak taw yg ak xpatut rs cmni...........bt ap ak nak igt past time yg btkan ak ngis truk2, xsnyum bpa hr....ngs tak kira tmpat, tak kira masa........ak taknak igt da...ak mmg wish taknak igt bnda2 yg sdih...tp, stiap masa, all of the memories cm slalu ada ja ngan ak..tak kira mana aku p, or apa yg ak buat...ap yg pnah ak lalui ngan dia, da jd cm a part of my life that i cant afford to leave....kdg2 ak rs cm stress sgt..nak menjerit2...tp, da mcm org gila meroyan plak....taknak la jd org gila kan....tp..ak stress..cam da berat sgt otak aku ni....ak seboleh2nya tknak jmpa dia, even taknak npk dia...or even sbt nama dia, or npk nama dia..sbnya, bla one of them jd, ak trus rs sdih sgt2, sdih sgt2...sdih yg tak dpat ak nak ckp cemana...ak mmg tak sedia and ak tak pnah sedia utk jd cmni..means..a break up with him...ak sedaya upaya pkiaq yg positif even sometimes ak da dpt rs feeling yg bnda ni akan jd..ak tolak , ak buang jauh2 perasaan tu and ak pgg ap yang dia ckp...and one day..everything is finished and no turning back anymore..kalo da pun, bkn lani and maybe ada.....maybe la...tell me, bpa percent maybe bleh jd kalo ak pnah yakin 100% and apa y ak yakin sgt2 tu da musnah....should i believe wit a word maybe???seriously..ak gla2 frust..awat jd camni.....should i believe in him.....ak nak...tp ak takleh...sepatutnya, ak just let him go...even ak syg dia sgt2 and ak taknak bnda cmni jd ..tp, ak tak terdaya nak lwn takdir..maybe da takda jodoh..or ap2 ja lg sbab yg len....yg hny dia taw apa sbab tu and yg ak tak pnah2 nak fhm sbab yg dia bg..perlu ka ak try ubah hati aku kat org lain ...perlu ka...ak taw ak takleh...sbabnya, setiap masa, ak rs dia ada ngan ak....cemana aku nak sygkn org len....even start ngan suka...seriously..it damn hard for me!!!tu bkn cra ak nak lupakan dia...ak da taktaw nak bt cemana lg.. i hope that i will meet someone else that love me, care for me......that seriously will not make me sad again...and i am really hope that the "someone" is a "new him"..that have said he will change to be a better man....and should i wait and trust him???