what if

if...

i never know that someone in my past life...

i will never be like this...

the way that i have never think of..

if...

i always hold on to myself..

not easily believe in what 'they' have said....

i will never be like this...

if...

i forgiving someone...

will i be at peace?

if...

i never be mad to my friends...

am i able to keep what i hate in my heart?

if...

i never done those things...

will i be at peace????

the fact that i know is...

because of you,

i happened to love pink and rose..

to keep me in calm.

and because of you,

i can't believe what other people say easily.

and because of you,

i started to think negatively in almost everything.

and because of you,

i felt a sort of loneliness that i have never feel.

and because of you,

i am hard to forgive anybody that hurt me.

and because of you,

i have changed myself.

u are the one who made me like this now.

negative thinker, unforgivable, and stubborn person.

and friends,

i am very sorry.

i love you.

i am really love all of you.

how many 'if' that i have wrote..

i know that everything happened accordingly.

there is hikmah that is always hidden.

but now, what if i want to stop blogging?