im too shy to ask, im too proud to loose

slm~

ehem3..tajuk post yg semacam..hope xda kontroversi yang menyusul..anyway..status kat blog picisan...xramai yang tahu..hehe...tu yang bagus kan..

by the way...sebelum aku nak tulis apa2 yang ala2 cam gedik, gatal, atau yang berkaitan..ehem3..segala midterm dah abeh dan diakhiri dengan test 2 aerodynamics..huhu..study tungging2 kot semalam..tp jawab cam apa je..xpe la..at least, aku dah study n agak puas hati la kan...dpt tmbah ilmu sendiri..xsemestinya boleh jwb exam tp nasib baik je dpat jwb, and pengetahuan tu mungkin bukan yang kita dapat dari study semalaman..well..apa yang aku merepek ni..ayat macam budak sekolah darjah tiga yang baru nak belajaq buat karangan..huhu

erm, xde apa sgt yang nak direveal..but the thing is, im too shy to ask, im too proud to loose...at this moment, i think that better to let everything just go on with the flow..anything might be happen and i dont want to burden my mind, or my heart to process my feeling now..what had happened before had teach me such a great lesson to my life and i will not going to let anything that is much similar like that happen again..just be happy as it is..yes..im happy now but i did not feel the happiness deep inside my heart and i hope that if something happen and not turn happily, i hope that my heart can be controlled, not like before...

i want to find a man that cares about me but not annoyying, able to protect me, calm me when i am sad, give me strength, and he is able to turn myself from a girl into a lady in a way that we both feel comfort together..but not hoping that im going to change everything by myself ...

okay...thats all..

*feeling jiwang karat tetiba*huhu